The Windows of Her Soul~

With her left hand on my right cheek she draws me close, face-to-face, eyes searching, looking deep into mine...
I look back and search inside her soul as they try to tell me stories she could not share with words. What I would give to know and hear those stories told in her mother tongue, what I would give to understand and listen...but her eyes, full of passion and mystery, spoke wonders, wishes, blessings, hopes, dreams, and love...mostly love...amidst the sacrifices.

She would murmur, holding my gaze, and then uttering at last, with satisfaction and with such conviction, as if she knew some truth, a realization, perhaps an affirmation, "Suto ay"--in Sindhi this means "good"...she seemed to like what she saw...and I did too. My Amma spoke through her eyes, always, and what beautiful, enchanting, sheroic stories she told.

On stormy days when...

He didn’t come home.
Carry him.

He feels alone.
Hug him.

You feel guilty.
Release him.

You cry.
Let go.

Have faith.
Pray.

Love.

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Then the rainstorm came over me
And I felt my spirit break
I had lost all of my belief you see
And realized my mistake
But time through a prayer to me
And all around me became still

I need love, love's divine
Please forgive me now I see that I've been blind
Give me love, love is what I need to help me know my name

Through the rainstorm came sanctuary
And I felt my spirit fly
I had found all of my reality
I realize what it takes

'Cause I need love, love's divine
Please forgive me now I see that I've been blind
Give me love, love is what I need to help me know my name

Oh I don't bend [don't bend], don't break [don't break]
Show me how to live and promise me you won't forsake
'Cause love can help me know my name

Well I try to say there's nothing wrong
But inside I felt me lying all alone
But the message here was plain to see
Believe in me…

'Cause I need love, love's divine
Please forgive me now I see that I've been blind
Give me love, love is what I need to help me know my name

Oh I, don't bend [don't bend], don't break [don't break]
Show me how to live and promise me you won't forsake
'Cause love can help me know my name

Love can help me know my name

by Seal, "Love's Divine"

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This was a memory from my childhood that I carry to this day but with God's grace, I have learned to let go of my fears and face them with love, His divine love that I pray, we all get to experience everyday.

Celebrating me~

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Originally uploaded by Dulimaman.

Today was such a loooong day but it was equally productive...i'm finally back in my element, zipping left and right, focused, determined, driven and happy.

I'm sooo tired but sleep escapes me so I am choosing to write it out...hoping my lids would drop soon...my sister says I should just lie down and try to sleep or I might lose it and end up being up the whole night....sigh!

The past week has been a stormy one but what I love about seeing and hearing the rain fall is it feels like heaven pouring out blessing upon blessing...it helped me get my act together....the rain always inspires me to calm down, the strong winds showed me that this could all disappear in a second so why should I waste it worrying when I could just LIVE and BE?

My brain is beginning to unwind, I can feel it.... Looking at this photo of me enjoying my vino [with my funky blue weekend nails] and wrapped in my own little world amidst the voices of friends catching up is just the picture I want to be in right now. I close my eyes and taste the almost sweet CabSauv and its flavors, I feel all warm and fuzzy inside and soon my body gives in to my heart that pushes my Spirit to soar and bask in the magnificence of this moment.

Suddenly, an old new wave hit song by The Cure entitled, "Friday, I'm in Love" floats through the airwaves and I am back writing but absolutely free. Sweet dreams! :)